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Tuesday, September 21, 2010

9 Days and the emotional roller coaster starts!

We (Craig and I) leave for our first trip to Ethiopia, a mission trip, in 9 days. We are blessed to be part of Ethiopia Smile - a group of 66 dentists and non-dentists going to Ethiopia to be the hands and feet of Jesus (more about the trip www.teamalexander.blogspot.com). My heart can't even begin to grasp what we are going to experience - and I am so excited, anxious, grateful and yes, a little unsure.
I have spent a majority of tonight crying at the thought of saying 'bye' to my 4 precious children here in Texas - I can't even get a handle on the tears. I know this is an ordained trip - God has been at work from the beginning and I know that He is a good God. But I have a mama's heart that loves deep and is going to miss my little crew here at home SO MUCH!!!
In the back of my mind I also can't quit thinking about courts opening in ONE week (yes, I'm counting) and what that means for our court date. We will be turning around to travel again once we receive our court date for sweet A - will that be in a couple of weeks, 6 weeks, a couple of months?? Only God knows!!
This is a time of transition, stepping out in faith, and trusting the One and Only True God. I know He is teaching me that I am NOT in control -- the adoption process has been and continues be a refining experience like no other.
The easiest thing for me to do in the next couple of weeks would be to run, turn and avoid the emotion that awaits, but I know that Christ gives me the strength to face all of the emotions head-on, to go directly through the hard stuff - the fun stuff - the joyful stuff and the sad stuff - and know for certain I will be better on the other side.
So, if you think of us, we ask that you pray for the following:
- travel safety
- timely (quick) court date
- my emotional stability
- God's glory to shine at all times during this trip

We will do our best to post updates during the trip.

3 comments:

  1. Will be praying!! I am so excited knowing that this will be a life-changing experience for you guys!! Oh, you will be in LOVE with the people!! I can't wait to hear all of the stories!!!

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  2. I am so excited about hearing all about the trip!!! prayers are with you!!!

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  3. If I made it, you can certainly do it!!! I know it's not easy leaving your kids behind. I hated that part. It's one of the hardest things about being a mom. What comforted me was knowing that it was ordained by God, like you said. So focus on that truth. I know this trip will bless you in ways you probably don't even expect and certainly in more ways than one. We will pray for your trip as well as for protection for your kids here. I cannot wait to hear all about it when you get back!! Blessings to all of you.
    Andrea

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